Wednesday, February 28, 2007
nothing much today.. went to have lunch/dinner with huiying at kfc at around 4plus 5.. cuz she didnt want to spend her last day of work's dinner alone.. heh..
went for ballet lesson after that.. toopid me.. forgot to bring my skirts out when rushing out of the house.. oh well.. the ride was alone, as usual.. and as usual.. weird smells overcome my nose often, when i was in the train..
i reached there like 45 mins early.. but i thot the door was locked.. so when suying came later on.. i told her the door might be locked.. she tried to open.. but not very daringly cuz miss kee was very angry at that moment, shouting her lungs out.. so she concluded that it was locked too. so when the other girls came, they were all told that the door was locked.
-.-
7.20pm, miss kee opened the door, finding all of us outside.. and asked "why are u all outside? i thought u all chuan4 tong1 hao3 lai2 fang4 wo3 ge1 zi3" and said she didnt "unlock" b4 she opened the door.. =.= so.. cuckoo me.. X)
after the lesson.. i decided to check out the door again.. turns out it might have been my angle of pushing the door.. but seriously speaking.. the door was really tough to open in the first place! i remembered my first time trying to open it and failed many times, thus deciding it was locked. then i see ppl coming in and out through the door
EFFORTLESSLY.. o.o =/
oh ya, i wanna ask.. when u ppl shower, or just when u go to the toilet, what's in ur mind? heh.. cuz i realise.. most of the time when im thinking, im usually in the shower.. probably cuz showering seems to be the activity that i use the least of my brain juices.. so within that time, i might as well "think"? as in, sort out things in my mind and stuffs la.. heh.. so.. if possible.. tag me ur answers? ^^"
11:59 PM
a little something for amusement purposes.- Freudian Slip
One day there was a priest sitting in a pew with a very worried and nervous look, and a another priest saw him and wondered what was wrong.
The second priest thought he should try to help, so he approached his distraught associate and asked him what was wrong. "Well" the first priest said, "have you ever heard of a Freudian Slip?"
"No," said the other priest."Well" said the first priest, "it's when one slips and says something one is thinking usually when it is the least opportune time."
"Oh," said the second priest, "so, what happened?"
"Well, today I performed a wedding and you know the part when you say 'I now pronounce you man and wife'?" asked the first priest.
"Yes?" said the second priest. "Well that is what I meant to say, and what I actually said was, "I now sentence you to death."
2:56 AM
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
ugh.. the pain in the thighs still remained. =.=
oops, overslept. only woke up at the door bell, signalling the realisation of my deadliest dream throughout cny -
PIANO LESSON.
it's not
that scary actually.. just exaggerating.. heh.. XD it's just.. she was so fierce the previous lessons.. =/ so this time, i was rather scared that she'd roar at me for the lack of practice again.. but haha, this time, i was more prepared.. prac-ed my scales and got some form of encouragement. ^^
hmm.. i realise when u have a "want", u feel more enthusiatic, and nervous, and
desperate for an answer . okay, dont go to the wrong side. i meant the posting results. previously, cuz i had no hope for my results, i had no desire to know bout my results, thus there's no "want" to go into any particular school(jc), ThEReForE, i didnt feel any nervous-ness bout if i can get into this school or that school. but now, i have a "want" to go to a particular school, so i feel more enthu, nervous, and desperate for answer! woah, that was a long breathe. XD waha anyway.. fyi,
posting results are coming
tentatively on
6 March '07.
rotted at home.. and tried my best not to sleep.. cuz if i had an afternoon nap, there goes my night sleep again.. x.x btw, i've been sleeping at times between 4am to 6am.. sometimes even past that range. x.x
was watching tv programmes, documents from "Animal Planet", "National Geographic", and "Discovery Channel". lol.. the lions' social patterns were not explained very clearly, though most probably cuz they still couldnt totally grasp the patterns yet. but somehow, they did explain clearly that the centre of the "Pride" is actually NOT the male lion. it's actually the female, taking up the responsibility of being a hunter (food provider), a mother, a cooperating sister, and a mating character. lol. sounds tough huh.. but yea.. that's somewhat the likes of human mums too isnt it? gosh.. so we shld learn to be filial, especially to mummy.. ^^
oh yea, saw the document on volcanoes too.. cool.. makes me wanna join the suicidal group of geographers too.. XD well, no offence, but it is somehow suicidal when u know the fact that it's one of the most dangerous jobs on earth and somehow u still go for it. but i do admire that braveness for passion. X)
then, there was this programme called "Is it Real?" and the topic they touched on, was the stigmatism from Christ. hmm.. funny, most cases came from Catholic church believers. anyway, i think the stigma-phenomenon thing still has much for humans to clarify, whether is it biologically or in terms of the religion. cuz in fact, out of so many cases of stigmatism, many were not acknowledged by the leaders of believers around the world themselves, and only the first was acknowledged as legitimate. but seriously, u cannot really investigate whether is it true or false cuz usually, these people are already dead when u want to try to solve the mystery, or, for those still living, u cant check how they got the wounds. cuz on a soft note, how do u know when or who is going to have such a thing happening to them? so how in the world are u going to be able to actually see if it's true or false?
so conclusion, the programme seeks to solve, yet leaves the viewers hanging, probably becuz of their inability to resolve. zz..
anyway, check out this web:
www.tzarist.comit's my cousin's webpage for her sales of earings, necklaces, and bracelets. and the amazing thing is,
it's all handmade! k, she's partnering with someone for this business but most of the items are made by her, Pei Si. ( i think her nick in the web is Em, Emerald)
take a look for interest's sake. waha u might even consider to buy! but i must warn u the items are
not cheap.
to view their work, click on the navigation "TRINKETS", and u'll see the links for earings, necklaces and bracelets. and if u click on the archive button, it's all their previous works,
ALL SOLD.
is it real? or is it just something psychological? i hope it's the latter.
11:59 PM
Monday, February 26, 2007
argh! my legs were starting to hurt once i woke up! must be the effects of yesterday. x.x couldn't walk properly and i didnt even realise that until i got out of the house at night time for yet, another ballet lesson. x.x
oh ya, did i mention i was so hooked up on youtube watching hana kimi? waha XD guess that's the reason i neglected my phone for hours or even half a day. x.x so sorry bout those not responding-s.. i will try to keep my phone near me from now on. hmm..
see la.. (most likely hinting to
someone XD) now i dont even dare to leave my phone alone.. not even when i go for a shower. =X (haha not exactly for that reason la.. it's just that i wanna listen to my playlist.. if not, i'll get bored. OR, sometimes, it's rather creepy.. especially when u know u're home alone. @.@)
anyway.. ahas.. im starting to get a lil crazy over wu zun, and a lil more than nuts for
JIRO!! waha he's so cute!! especially when somehow, his front teeths are so tiny!! X)
wahahaha.. anyway, back to today, i had dinner at mac donald's with shann.. hmm.. we talked about O's and A's.. and she said A level History is of not much diff from O level History.. it's just, more countries, and more detail to remember. the skills and stuffs are all the same. waha. XD
oh, did i mention meiyi came over in the afternoon to practise her piano skills? ahas.. k, not really piano skills, but i decided to teach her another song, abandoning "yu jian".. which in a way is easier, and nicer. "Forbiddened Love". and true enough, she's learning it faster than the other one. waha. and cool~ now, she's starting to be able to figure out the "dou ya" notes on her own! hehe.. =) as her best friend and her "teacher", im proud of her!! XD
it's passed 2 months already, what's wrong with me?
yet again, don't you still feel anything?
though i doubt.
11:59 PM
Sunday, February 25, 2007
sunday, i had ballet in the morning, continuously for 2 hours and 45 minutes, after such a long break. @.@ SO TIRED!! x.x
i went home to rest, bathe and got into clean clothes, and finally called meiyi. X) walked to the mall. first, we went to NYP for my pay. waha.. though little, it's still useful. ^^
we walked around the malls, searching for jobs (for meiyi), rather successful, yet not very successful. waha k, that was rather crappy. as in, we got the usual, leave-ur-contact-and-we'll-call-you responses. successful in the sense that there was one shop which would most likely offer u a job, or at least, put u on the "probation period" for about 2 weeks, and u do get paid for it. and, she's rather interested in it. =)
oh yea, i finally got my ear-piercing done. hmm.. i think.. it's just a short, sharp pain, with a few minutes of pro-longing minor pain. after that, the pain is more or less gone. ^^ so, my point is, somehow to encourage
some people (u know who u guys are) to go for it. waha
bought that antibiotic lotion, $2.50 for a very, very small bottle. x.x oh well, according to huiying, it's better to spend that money, than to save that bit and get an infection. waha. X)
had a cup of hot choco at mac cafe. ^^. oooh~ meiyi had her first with me. XD sounds so wrong.. XDD walked to the park and we chatted for like, 2 hours?? haha soon, it was nearing 11pm and we had to go home. X) but it was a nice day. waha.. XD
im afraid she'd get hurt.
1:07 AM
Saturday, February 24, 2007
woah.. been rather distracted these few days.. or rather, these few weeks.. especially since i stopped work somehow.. heh..
hmm.. went out with meiyi, vivien, and a guy called weijian from meiyi's work place, to vivo for a movie and a walk last wednesday. lol, we watch the Epic movie and it was a total crap. zz.. it's just a sick and stupid movie. so it's like, unless u wanna be sexually "moved" by its erotic-ness, DON'T watch it.
oh, before that we ate at long john's.. hmm.. had a taste of its clam soup? or something like that.. hmm.. not bad la.. waha.. shld try it when u're hungry.. then u'll think its nice. ^^
walked around.. vivien had to leave earlier.. so we carried on walking awhile, before weijian suggested to do something else like pool, or kbox.. so we went over to cine-leisure (is it spelt like that?? o.O) lol.. no space for pool, and meiyi and i didnt feel like going for kbox.. so we went arcade. XD
waha.. that guy really don't seem to know when to stop.. when it was rather late le like 9 plus going to 10 le he still wanted to hang around.. oh well.. we went home anyways..
lol, funny.. meiyi was supposed to be on better terms with him.. turned out i was talking to him more than anyone did.. zz..
well, that's all i remember for last week. ^^
tell me a method to stop the insomnia.
12:50 AM
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
aiya. forgot to upload pictures from my phone.. so.. nothing much to see.. x.x
oh ya.. erm.. happy belated-s.. x.x
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY-S to:
1. Gerald
2. Chuiying (i'm so sorry.. x.x was rather bz that day.. x.x)
3. Faheem. (hmm.. oh btw, shirlyn, u got buy the present i suggested? XD)
then.. friday was my 2nd bro's 21st birthday.. haha.. spent like more than 200 bucks for his birthday.. 160 for present and the rest for cake.. (it was an ice cream cake from hagan daaz. XD) really sorry to shann and shirlyn and hannah for ps-ing that day.. but i really didnt expect my bro to allow me to go for his celebration.. and, since it's his 21st birthday, it's very significant to me.. especially when he's such a dear person to me.. so.. really sorry.. x.x
chinese new year eve, whole day was spent on last min spring cleaning.. but woah.. this yr was the fastest spring cleaning ever! waha we managed to do generally everything before 12am, and got to watch the cny event show on channel 8. X)
chinese new year.. ahas.. nothing much different from previous years.. except that we didnt get to do that yu sheng thing this yr, cuz mum was tired.. hmm.. everyone come.. receive ang bao.. eat lunch.. play blackjack.. (i had winnings! XD)
then go GU GU JIA, play blackjack again, then cousin taught us how to play poker.. cool.. but a rather risky game.. and u must really know how to cheat, and play with the mentality through expressions and stakes u put. oh, then my cousin let me watch "V for Vendetta". nice show.. but only managed to watch half.. waha it's a rather chim movie though.. XD have to watch like 2 times b4 u can understand.. but luckily i had my cousin to explain some things.. plus, with my HISTORY background, i can understand better. XD
next day, went to GU GU JIA again.. this time, with my whole family.. except for my 2nd bro la.. he went out with his friends.. nothing much la.. watched the next half of V for Vendetta.. dinner.. then abit of blackjack.. then home.. then, vcd-drama-marathon! started from 1am all the way till 7.30am! XD
ahh.. the next day was bai nian at sherlin's house.. waha was quite fun.. but woah.. i was rather surprised at how filled her house was though it was already chu1 san1.. haa.. played blackjack again.. hmm.. huiing lost quite alot.. and again, hyi won most again.. ... waha.. way home.. i realised something shocking i never knew.. and MEIQI, HUANGYI, and GIAN HUI all know!!! grr.. never tell me.. sob sob.. but.. err.. it was really a shocking news.. waha XD
11:57 PM
Friday, February 16, 2007
woah.. go to this web.. i cant put it in here somehow.. =( but ahas.. the girl in the video is great!!
http://www.metacafe.com/watch/178160/incredible_11_year_old_yodeller/ahas.. it's titled : Incredible 11-Year-Old Yodeller
enjoy watching! X)
2:50 AM
Thursday, February 15, 2007
geez.. the new blogger sucks.. i attempted to make a blog with that new system.. try try only la.. but i couldnt change the skin!! >.<
oh ya.. argh.. im so tempted to buy an ipod shuffle.. XD
2:12 AM
woah.. valentine's day today..
happy valentine's to everyone. ^^didnt intend to blog though.. but somehow i just opened the window, typed the web add.. and tadah, here i am.
this valentine's is quite lonely.. o.o i mean, the past 2 or 3 yrs, i'd have either chocolates or roses from PHY!! hehe but this year.. im in my room cleaning up.. -.- and i didnt have lunch! sob.. so i ate cereal at bout 4+ pm.. =/
oh! my lil bro actually bought a rose for me! aww~ how sweet.. ahas.. XD
anyway.. i saw something that caught my attention.. plus, there's something i need to clarify in case of misunderstandings too. his blog, the latest entry. (im not going to criticise or what, don't misunderstand. ^^)
well, im not sure if he still comes, but i've been going there. lol. and, im not sure if his entry somewhat refers to me or whatever, im just gonna say he's rather contradicting. o.o
well the first part was.. umm.. well.. when i saw it, i was thinking.. wasnt that how he behaved? wasnt that what i felt about it? lol. felt weird when it seemed like he was agreeing with me. lol.
but he made his point in the middle portion.. oh well.. maybe im just being paranoid.. but i've got a feeling he's refering me under that catogory too. that think before u write thing. but well, i can say i wanna refer that back to him too. ^^
then the last point.. err.. i agree? lol.. then probably i shouldn't blog bout this too.
BUT, there's another thing i wanna clarify.. those bad comments on the tagboard? i can say im innocent of it. =) i mean, after all, i never tagged on his blog. otherwise, his blog would appear as black as my blog seemed like the other time. oh well, im probably just paranoid.. but it's just a just-in-case kinda thing? lol.
12:43 AM
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
hmm.. haven't been blogging these few days.. so i shall post an entry now. lol k that was nonsensical. XD
ahh.. it seems like i just don't like to blog on those supposedly "big days". XD so i might not blog on valentine's too. heh
anyway.. results was out last friday.. (duh..) and i can say it's really much better than expected. and i would like to thank that particular person, for coaching me on chemistry, and making me go for the A math exam that day.. cuz without him doing those, i wouldn't have gotten such grades. Thanks.
and of cuz, i thank those who accompanied me for studying before O's, especially
huiying,
gianhui,
leekiang and
sherlin for being my
studying-at-void-deck-mates. XD i somehow really miss those days when we go study, then eat cheese-sphagetti, then bubble tea, then study again, then dinner, then study, then home after 10pm days.. hehe
haha, like some kind of thanking ceremony, oh ya, must also thank
jonlim for his house too. heh and
the people who studied there and then. X)
then again, of cuz, my results are not very good as compared to the others, but to me, it's good enough. =)
hahahaha.. friday was actually a nice day.. though there were times when i had it hard(i.e. breathing difficulties suddenly while at work), i would still manage to smile from time to time cuz :
1) my results. =D
2) can say i made up with shirlyn. =)
(as in, relations are not that bad le la. X))
oh ya, heh. i went to ikea with my mum on sat night. XD walked around the whole place.. and we only bought 2 pillows. ahas. hers cost around $80 while mine cost $25. XD our lucky heads. hehe
then lol, we took the shuttle bus and saw courts.. didnt notice at first, then my mum pointed out to me at the open space in the Courts building where there's a trolley full of pillows.. the first thought was like, err... lol.. we could've gone there for cheaper pillows.. -.- heh. but oh well.. too bad then. XD
OH, i only realised that day, that the weird, suspicious-looking bus i saw passing by my house area for a couple of months, was all along, the IKEA-COURTS-Tampines MRT Station shuttle bus. -_-lll zz..
so anyway.. im still considering between nyjc arts, whether to
TRY to get into mjc arts, and the psychology course in np, for my 1st and 2nd choices. as in, the arrangement la. for those still wandering about tjc and mjc, (im rather obvious in my hinting
hor) hehe.. good luck! XD
and OH, Girls, what are we gonna do about Valentine's Day?
1:22 AM
Saturday, February 03, 2007
lol.. listening to the song "Irreplacable".. and i'll usually be reminded of the way faheem dances to the song. LOL heh
hmm.. improvement.. lol i slept at bout 4am the last two days.. XD
oh ya.. i only realised this last night.. did anyone see the f-word at the background of this skin? lol i was reviewing the comments on this blogskin.. then i realised that there's that word at the background.. lol.. said to show rebellion in the skin.. o.O oh well.. waha
check out this wallpaper! nice isnt it? X)
5:16 PM
lol, this is kinda late but oh well =)BLAQUE LYRICS"I'm Good"Yeah
Uh huh
New Blaque
Darckchild, Darkchizzle
The jump off
Is it true that im the one making you nervous?
Trying real hard as bound for show press
By you and your crew, that's helpless
You saw that X5, that's me outside
I know you, kinda seem so confused
You cant understand how my diamonds seem blue
But its cool its true, its unusual
A girl so fly out shining a guy
We can talk about this, lets talk about it
We can talk about this, don't think about it
About me on the floor, that's what I came here for
So pump ya breaks it seem as if ya wantin' more
It aint me, im sorry you got the wrong one
It aint me, I just came out to have fun
It aint me, go out and find another one
I don't like what your kickin' son, now leave
Cause even if I'm leave alone, I'm good
And even if you come along, I'm good
Don't mean a thing to me cause, I'm good
With or without you
If you wanna play games with me then, I'm good
Say what you do for me then, I'm good
You don't really mean a thing cause, I'm good
With or without you
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
Playas please, please stop frontin' and do you
I don't know Benz started makin Isuzu's
But it's cool cause I do what I do
Which causes me not to be needin you.
When I leave, I got a crib to go to
That I got myself straight out of high school
So if you comin' at me, be ready
Cause there aint no way imma let somebody play me
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
We can talk about this, lets talk about it
We can talk about this, don't think about it
About me on the floor, that's what I came here for
So pump ya breaks it seem as if ya wantin' more
It ain't me, im sorry you got the wrong one
It ain't me, I just came out to have fun
It ain't me, go out and find another one
I don't like what your kickin' son, now leave
Cause even if I'm leave alone, I'm good
And even if you come along, I'm good
Don't mean a thing to me cause, I'm good
With or without you
If you wanna play games with me then, I'm good
Say what you do for me then, I'm good
You don't really mean a thing cause, I'm good
With or without you
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
[Rap]Yo, im only Clyde if you clip me
And I still got ice even if you aint wit me
Candy paint and I still bump Biggie
Halter, throwback, ripped up dickies
Ya hate me cause I am nice up on the mic
I'm twice the size of rice
My flow keepin 'em right
Brain dead you need cents like 50
Cause you won't truely love me like Bobby and Whitney
No
Cause even if I'm leave alone, I'm good
And even if you come along, I'm good
Don't mean a thing to me cause, I'm good
With or without you
If you wanna play games with me then, I'm good
Say what you do for me then, I'm good
You don't really mean a thing cause, I'm good
With or without you
Cause even if I'm leave alone, I'm good
And even if you come along, I'm good
Don't mean a thing to me cause, I'm good
With or without you
If you wanna play games with me then, I'm good
Say what you do for me then, I'm good
You don't really mean a thing cause, I'm good
With or without you
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
4:51 PM
Friday, February 02, 2007
lol.. my body clock's really screwed up.. for the past few days.. i slept at 5am, then 6am then 8am in the morning.. now, it's 4 am.. waha.. XD
hmm.. was watching Girls Out Loud.. haa.. quite funny.. plus sometimes i do read xiaxue's blog.. hmm.. her blog is sometimes okay.. sometimes quite informative.. sometimes a lil over the limit.. but somehow, she'd be able to argue through.. haha but cannot blame la.. afterall, she's led a life of comfort and glamour.. so her thinking would be too.. erm.. i dunno.. insensitive in some ways.. lol
oh ya.. btw.. her blog is the one that emphasizes on freedom of speech.. heh.. lemme quote something from her blog..
"I will not tolerate trolling, spamming, or defaming. To hell with freedom of speech, this is MY blog, and insulting me here is like giving me a slap and telling me I shouldn't respond."
waha.. love that.
lol, i saw something.. was actually shocked that that kind of thing would actually happen. lol. i didnt do it.. but i wun deny that i did feel some kind of enjoyment when i saw it.
then, like awhile ago.. i wanted to go back and see more of it.. lol, the whole thing was changed.. so every evidence was gone. dang! should have taken a photo of it as memo.. lol but OH WELL. lolx.. at least i know that it happened before. X))
4:11 AM
lol, actually thought for quite awhile what to do cuz of different things different people tell me and how i feel. some tell me to just forget it, the "war" is not worth it. some support me(thanks ^^) and my own opinion tells me that keeping quiet meant admitting defeat.
people like kylie, glendon, gianhui, huangyi, meiqi, etc told me to not bother bout them. it's like in a way a smart choice, cuz what for cont this argument when at the end of the day, u know it'll get nowhere.
was on the phone with huangyi yesterday.. i think she also said to not bother about them.
oh btw, thnks for pei-ing me talk though u were sick.. XD
i called kylie today.. it's like.. quite a long time since i talked to her on the phone.. so i thought of calling her and did.. waha she's doing her hmwk.. hardworking as usual. =) didnt manage to talk to her for long cuz i had to go for dinner but she did tell me this, "don't bother bout this kind of people la"
gianhui called today.. so i shun bian talked to her bout this thing since she saw it too.. she also said "dont bother bout them la"
msged with glen and he told me "just forget about it la. this kind of thing is not worth winning. of you win, more people angry. if you lose, you get angrier. Just leave it be. =)"
somehow their words didnt really decisively change my mind though to me, they're usually trusted to be very reliable, saying the right things to do.. not saying they're not, but they didnt change my mind decisively.. probably cuz it's all said out of the "war", that took place in my blog.
i thank phy and jan for speaking up for me in the tagboard.. really glad last night when i first saw it.. cuz i guess many didnt wanna get involved in such sticky situations and make anybody their enemy. i mean, not that i want them to do so, cuz afterall, yea, they're innocent parties.. so i can understand. but im saying that last night i felt support for the first time. in my "war" against so many ppl(cuz i made them my enemies duh), the way phy spoke up for me was really encouraging. like.. she's willing to get herself into sticky situations though she wasnt involved for me.. so im really thankful. ahas
then just now.. i saw meiqi's tag. was really really really happy. cuz while i was thinking that people close to me, that i hang out with more oftenly, arent willing to speak up for me publicly(not a bad thing though), she stood by my side! really thankful to meiqi too. =)
BUT, i must say that im not the kind who would go on thinking that im right just becuz i have support. rather, those support made me think more clearly. if not, i'd probably indulge in that it's-so-unfair-to-me attitude(i'll explain why later) and not say what im gonna say later, to solve this issue, my way. and might most probably continue this meaningless "war".
truth is, there's this "debate" or arguement what ever u call it, that i had with senghoe last night. he told me to tell phy to stop talking after he saw her tag. while i was feeling glad that someone actually stood by me, he said that it was unnecessary cuz it'd bring more trouble.
he said the issue had ended. yeechien had stated that this issue will end. so why continue to ask for trouble?
then what about me? i still had things to say. how is it reasonable that im supposed shut up in MY own blog?
he said that im supposed to be prepared for all these taggings once i posted that complaint entry. well yea, im prepared. im prepared to go even further than this. and if u think carefully, it's them who arent. yeechien tries to prove me wrong by tagging all those, but in the end it just shows that he'd be speechless cuz he was in the first place guilty of whatever i said. those mean things he said about me, was just in an attempt to continue debating cuz he had nothing else to say anymore.
oh ya, bout the faheem's tag thing.. pls la.. i did ask him personally if he disliked me before and he said no. no reason to lie isnt it? plus that day he did sleep till noon. so if u say that he asked u to tag on his behalf, that's so lame.. trying to cover up for urself. if u feel that im "paotoh queen", just say so.. there's no need to try to give urself support by tagging in other people's name.
bout jacky, i would apologise bout that "u realise i nv really said anything about you?" as it seemed like an attempt to cover up what i said bout u. i would explain though. when i said that, i was trying to get out of the fight with u cuz afterall, u weren't my main target of disgression. so it's my fault for saying that.
however, it is still a fact that u provoked me first. u said u had nothing against me before this. i also had nothing against u. but do u remember that u actually kp-ed with me on sunday night bout the oil issue? fine, the person who raised his voice at me was actually hq.. but i just catergorised the two of u together. sorry bout that. but u sure did provoke me. so in that case, u cant really debate.
anyway.. back to the senghoe issue. he described this thing as, i gave them a slap first, of cuz they'd get angry and come tagging such things. so he told me to stop this conflict by not saying anything else anymore, since they've decided to end this thing already.
but seriously, he didnt give a thought for my feelings. if i were to describe it with his words, it's like, they gave me one more slap before saying, alright, let's end this thing. is it fair to me? how can they have the last say??
i mean, would u be happy if someone stepped on ur shoes, and after some quarreling, he steps on ur shoes again and says "let's stop quarreling and have nothing to do with each other anymore" as though he's being reasonable, wanting peace.
that's not the way to end things.. especially when it's in MY blog, and also that it
was THEM who provoked me first.
however.. i do find something that he said sounds right. he said that if i refuse to stop this conflict, i'd appear childish on my side too. fine, i know that. so i promise that this will be my last entry bout this issue. especially when it's all getting clear.
yeechien has nothing to debate on his side anymore cuz he's guilty of what i said. so whatever he says on, would just be an attempt to debate, without much base.
the thing bout ppl in sch disliking me, all i can say is that mostly it rooted from misunderstandings in lower sec, then rumours spread, and more misunderstandings take place. and for ur info, i've actually made up with some of the people.
bout jacky, i apologise for trying to get out of the debate with you through not so good means, but the rest of it, i wouldnt change my mind. afterall, u were the one who provoked me first. and u were the one who splattered vulgar on my tagboard, which is actually very mean(that's kinda mild isnt it? is there any better word than mean? malicious? hmm)
in any ways though, im quite disappointed with him.. cuz of the way he tries to end this thing. and i can say that it is with bias feelings behind it. afterall, he's friends with them. between me and them, he said.
then bout that thought, "maybe i shouldnt have posted that complaint entry in the first place" thing, i wont regret that seriously. it's my blog. i write whatever i want. if u wanna debate with me, confront me directly, cuz it's actually pointless to argue online. then before u retort why didnt i do so in the first place, think carefully if i've done that before or not, before u come kp me in my blog.
it's like.. i was looking through some blogs last night.. i came by my friend's blog(which i rarely visit) and realised he put a sidenote in his blog under his profile section.
"i bitch. i crap. i say what i like, usually irresponsible words that may hurt your feelings. i don't really give a fuck about how ANYBODY (read: including you) feels. not happy? don't read. wanna read? fucking stop complaining."so it's like.. yea.. quite true isnt it? i've seen another blog which emphasizes on
"freedom of speech" too. and bout that complaint entry, it would be that u can come and confront me.. cuz it's quite a personal attack kind of entry isnt it? but do it directly to me. cuz like i said, it's pointless to argue online.
im trying to say, they came to argue with me online, not daring to confront me directly, the way i said they should, so if anyone's supposed to shut up, in MY blog, it's them, not me. and i shall emphasize too,
FREEDOM OF SPEECH.
so i guess this is the end of my entry-fighting with them i suppose. if they retaliate anymore(though i doubt cuz i suppose they might probably want to portray themselves as mature people, not bothering themselves with me? o.O not sure.. but i guess not la.), i would delete the vulgar msgs.
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