Tuesday, November 20, 2007
ah im sick. =(
COUGH
FLU
SORE THROAT
FEVER
HEADACHE
period
hmm stayed at home for like 2-3days? skipped ballet lesson yesterday and choir today. don't think i'll be going for choir tmr either. i mean like err, if u listen to my voice, u'd understand how i cant sing XD
k i feel bad but i should be going for debates tmr. i mean, comparing choir and debates, debates i'd just need to speak for 7mins(includes pauses of blankos XD)? while for choir i have to sing(includes efforts to use support and sing without breaking my voice halfway?) for 3 hours? i guess in a way debates is not so strenuous for the voicebox. X)
anyway today, i was so
upset. =( apparently there's this indian guy who works at the shop on his own accord and apparently he steals our stuffs luh. and apparently he's some ren2 zha1 who is very capable of creating trouble. so, when today, he buys a pack of cigarettes with only $4(owing $5.80), and then after a while came back pretending to search his pockets and asking me if i gave him the pack of cigarettes, my mom just passes him another pack, closing one eye luh.
i complained to my dad, and he scolds me instead, that sometimes we should just forgo principles to save ourselves from more trouble. what i dont get is, why should we be bullied by such a despicable idiot when we are on the right?
talked to phy after that cuz i stomped out of the shop when both my parents were shouting at me for making a rackus about it. apparently, she told me the same thing luh. i guess things seems and sounds different coming from a friend rather than your parents though they are actually the same thing luh. it comes more accepting i suppose.
but either ways, conclusion is, whatever adults try to teach us since young, be it morals, values, principles, etc, it all comes to naught when you enter society. when you enter society, apparently, all these doesnt apply cuz not everyone will go law-by-law, and follow what that was taught. there is bound to be people who will become the black sheep, and slowly the logic comes to people that you have to be one to deal with one. so slowly, everyone becomes despicable in some ways, to deal with people of the same sort, and others close one eye, and then the next generation realizes that the
values taught are empirically impossible to apply, that
the innate knowledge of good and evil is certainly blurred in the current society.
9:00 PM
